So pumping and feeding isn't a big deal. Except that I feel like I don't get to hold Nolan anymore. We're going to try nursing today and see what happens. Maybe a miracle?! We'll see. I won't hold my breath. I can't keep up with how much he wants/needs to satisfy himself. We've been supplementing with formula again, something I really really didn't want to do. But the kid needs to eat, so there's nothing I can do. He's still getting more breast milk than formula, so that's a good thing, but still. I want him to be getting all breast milk and nothing else. It'll happen, eventually. I know I'm still establishing my milk supply and all that, but holy god, the boy loves him some booby milk!!!

So we've been home for a whole week as of today!! And, Nolan is 10 days old today!! It really makes me so sad!!! I loooove the squishy tiny newborn phase, and it doesn't last nearly long enough. He's starting to stay awake for much longer periods of time, he's kinda falling into somewhat of a routine at night. He's the most easy going baby we've ever brought into our home! He's so content to just hang out and listen to all the sounds around him. He looks around lots and really responds to his mama's voice!! I love that the most!! He'll lift his head and try to find me if someone else is holding him and i start talking!! Melt my heart little boy!!

We had my mom here for the past week helping out!! It was nice to have dinner cooked for us and someone to play with the big boys!! It's funny how different it becomes with each baby you bring home!! With Spencer, we needed my mom to help us with EVERYTHING! Diaper changes, baths, feedings, swaddling (still need her help with this, I'm useless!!) With Liam, we still needed help with a lot of the day to day, but not as extensively as with Spencer! With Nolan, I needed help with the big boys, and hardly at all with the baby!! It was nice to just have someone here to visit with, or to look after the big boys if I needed to sleep a little. Speaking of sleep, I haven't hit my wall yet, I'm sure it's coming in the next week or so, but I've been feeling pretty good! It's hard to get out of bed in the morning, but then again, when isn't it? Once I'm up, though, I'm pretty good to go! There's enough to do around here that I don't have time to really sit and get tired, so that's a blessing in disguise I think!!!

So Spencer is completely smitten with his newest baby brother! He loves on him like crazy!! Loves to just look at him! He holds him, and sings to him, brings him different toys, you name it!! Liam is pretty curious, likes to look at him, touch him and get to know him in his own way. He's acting out a bit, but not towards anyone, he's just really crabby pretty much all the time. I think it's just his way of adjusting. We've been really working on keeping Spencer and Liam on their regular schedule so that their little lives aren't totally turned upside down!! I don't think it'll take too long for things to settle down here and Liam to return to his normal happy self!! Spencer seems completely fine with the newest addition, so that's a good thing! I'll just have to make sure I'm not as hard on him as I have been this past week. He is only 3 after all. I need to just let him act his age!!! I've been raising my voice a lot more than I really care to admit to in the last week! I need to stop it before it becomes habit.

Anyway, time to go eat some breakfast!! I'm starving!