So this might be totally ass backwards and really messed up, but I tend to use my stretchmarks as a gauge to how much weight I'm losing. The more puckered they are, the more weight/surface area is gone. I was noticing this morning as I was hopping into the shower...sadly I had to pass a mirror on my way...ugh! Anyway, I stopped and had a good look. Seems as though my arms are thinning out a little bit. I've noticed that the stretchmarks that are right up near my armpit are getting really puckered. There's also a lot more stretchmarks visible on my inner arm that weren't before, yet another sign that the old tree trunk sized arms are thinning out. The stretchmarks on my arms were so stretched that i couldn't even see them. I hate that my arms have stretchmarks, my legs, my belly (great reasons for those though!) and other areas are all covered in the damn little squigglies. It's awful that I let myself go that far that now as I'm losing weight I'm looking worse in areas than I did when I was supa-fat. I'll take puckered stretch marks over high cholesterol and obesity any day, though! The stretchmarks on my belly don't bother me at all. Those are kinda like my right of passage into motherhood! I remember when I first found out I was pregnant with Spencer, I went to the doctor to confirm the pregnancy and one of the first questions he asked me was about stretchmarks and how I felt about them. Seriously? I told him, if they happen, they happen, if not, then great. No skin off my ass either way! So, I'm proud of my ugly belly because it grew and nurtured 3 beautiful healthy babies. What more could I ask of it?? Really? I should be apologizing to it because the 3 beautiful babies it carried, were HUGE babies!! So, Belly, I'm sorry for stretching you the way I did, I don't hold the squigglies against you, I embrace them, to be honest! I won't go flashing them around to anyone, but they are a constant reminder of what my body did FOR me so I will accept the ugly of my belly, and move on!
Anyway, I'll keep using my stretchmarks as my own messed up weight loss gauge! Just thought I'd share my messed up way of doing things!!
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