But, in my defense, I was on holidays!! Nowhere exciting, but it was away from here and that was good!! It's nice to get away, but holy god, it's nice to get home!!! I have NEVER been so thrilled to sleep in my own bed!!! We went to visit my Dad and unfortunately had to sleep on an air mattress the entire 10 nights we were there. HORRIBLE! My pregnant hips and back were screaming at me every morning!! Not fun.
Oh yeah, we had the ultrasound, and we're having ANOTHER boy. I'm not gonna lie. I'm dissapointed. Of course I love him, of COURSE I love him, but I was so hoping for a girl. This pregnancy has been so very different from the previous 2. I haven't been sick, I haven't been sore (until now) I haven't been moody. Nothing nothing nothing like the last 2 times! So anyway, I did make it out of the ultrasound office before I completely broke down. We're talking crying so hard that I couldn't form a single sentance. I felt so unprepared to hear it was a boy. We only had a girl name picked out. We had only been looking at pink baby items. It was all girl in our heads. I felt guilty that I was sad it was a boy, I felt guilty that I didn't have a name. When we had our ultrasounds with Spencer and Liam, we knew when we left the office who was in my belly. First Middle and Last names. With this one. Nothing. How unfair is that. We do have a first name now. It's Nolan. However, a middle name is proving to be very difficult. It needs to be two syllables, and start with a consonant. Why? Because I'm nuts. That's why. So anyway, the shock of having 3 boys was a bit much. But I'm dealing with it. and I'm really looking forward to meeting my little Nolan! I'm not sure if we'll have anymore babies. I am really on the fence with this. I'm going to have a long chat with my OB and get her opinion on whether or not my body can handle another pregnancy. Whether or not it's safe. 3 c-sections in 3 years is pretty extreme, so I don't know if more babies are even an option. In any case, we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.
The vacation was good. It was a nice getaway, both boys had loads and loads of fun! We didn't have any sort of agenda. We didn't really go visiting anyone, I know that's bad, but man it takes a lot of energy to sit with family. We played in the sun, spent lots of time as a family of four, took the kids to the beach, tried and failed to find a bear...BC wildlife HATES me, I think!!
Anyhoo, I'm tired, it's late. So time to hit the sack!! Mmmmm I love my bed!
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