I think I Spoke Too Soon

I'm feeling quite a lot more nauseas today than I have so far. I'm hoping its because I had a terrible sleep and am really really tired. We'll see. I'm going to crash on the sofa when Liam goes down for his morning nap. We'll see where that gets me!

Liam has been bruising quite easily lately. It worries me so I've made him a doctors appointment to get them all checked out. Better safe than sorry!! I've been instructed to take pictures of all his different bruises...easier said than done!! I'm sure it's nothing, but still, I don't like them!

Spencer tried to wipe his own bum yesterday. Yeah. That's all I'm saying.

Well, that's it for now!!!

6 Weeks

Okay, so I'm officially 6 weeks today (counting back to the first day of my LMP). I've had brief waves of nausea for the past three mornings, but it passes really quickly, so that's a good thing. I'm hoping it stays that way. I ate like a horse yesterday, and thought that that might make me feel sick, but I was okay. Uncomfortable because of the incredible amount of food in my gut, but that's it!! I have hit the super fatigue though. I can hardly walk up half a flight of stairs without feeling exhausted. I hate that part. I feel like it's harder to deal with this time because there's 2 kids that need my attention. When I was pregnant with Liam, it wasn't so bad because Spencer was still napping in the morning, so we'd get up for a few hours and then Spencer would go for a nap, and so would I! Same thing in the afternoon. Now, Spencer doesn't nap in the morning but Liam does. He naps longest in the morning and then just power naps in the afternoon. Very difficult to deal with when I'm feeling dead tired by about 2pm! Oh well, it won't last forever!

So other than that, nothing much else is happening. My pants are starting to get really tight so I'm going to have to hit up the maternity store next time I'm in the city. Who knows when that'll be though!!! I bought some larger pajama pants last night, so hopefully I can get by with them while I'm at home. I have a fantastic pair of jeans that have a stretchy waist (sound ugly but they're not!) so those will do for the time being!!! I wish Maternity clothes weren't so friggen expensive!!

Anyway, gonna go watch some Curious George with my big boy!!

All The Little Things I Forgot About

Like the mind blowing headaches. Oh. My. God. These are the headaches that saw me going to the hospital for MORPHINE shots when I was pregnant with Spencer. These are the headaches that saw me going to specialist after specialist when I was pregnant with Liam. I wonder what they're going to do to me this time. I know I'm not even 6 weeks along, so that makes me a little nervous to pop a tylenol here and there. If I were further along, it wouldn't bother me as much, but weeks 5-10 are a period of rapid growth and development (like..oh say the internal organs and such) it's also the period for the greatest chance of deformities. So, I don't want to be taking anything beyond my prenatal vitamin. I suppose I'll phone Health Link if they get really bad. I don't know

On an happy note here, no major morning sickness yet!! A little wave of nausea here and there, but nothing like in my past pregnancies, lets hope it stays that way!! I have my doubts though! With Liam, it was the day I hit 6 weeks that the nausea started. So, I'll report back on wednesday when I'm officially 6 weeks along.

So I've been having feelings of twins. I have no idea why, I have to say that I'm kinda warming up to the idea. It would be hard, but I could handle it...with a lot of help, of course! When I was pregnant with Spencer, I knew right off the bat that he was a boy. With Liam, I hoped and prayed he was a girl, but knew he'd be a boy. With this one, I'm feeling twins. I hope I'm wrong, but I wouldn't be upset, perhaps a little stunned, but not upset if my feelings were true. However, any other type of inclination or intuition I've really ever had turns out to be a load of crap. So the odds are (obviously) that it's just a singleton in there!! And we all know that would be a LOT easier on the old pocket book!!

Other than that, nothing exciting has been happening!! Both the boys are being their little turdy selves. Liam has been a little bit cranky these past few days, i don't know if he's trying to pop some teeth or what, but I hope it passes soon. Spencer is growing more and more jealous as the days go by. It's a little wierd that it took almost 11 months for him to realize that Liam was in fact staying and that he should be jealous. It's hard to deal with, but I'm sure we'll get through it relatively unscathed!

Well, that's it for tonight. off to watch the Academy Awards. Not because I want to really, but becasue there is NOTHING else on! TV sucks lately!!

I think the morning sickness kicked in today. My pants feel too tight, so it's making me feel sick. I ate something, I want to throw it back up. I drank some water, I want to throw it back up. I yawn, I gag. I knew it was only a matter or time!! Guess I'll be making an appointment with the Dr. next week so I can pick up some diclectin!

I am

Pregnant.

Five weeks and One day to be exact. It's my third baby. I'm really really excited. I thought in an effort to make this blog (that no one reads!) more interesting, I'd turn it into a somewhat pregnancy blog. Not, however, at the expense of boring all none of you with stories of my other charming little kidlets! But, to let you (no one) know how things are going and blah blah blah.

So anyway, this is my 4th pregnancy. I had a miscarriage between Spencer and Liam. I sometimes forget that it happened though. It didn't affect me that badly. Probably because I only knew for 2 days that I was pregnant, and also because I had one healthy child already, so I knew my body was capbable. That being said, I'm still terrified of having a miscarriage. I haven't told everyone yet that I'm pregnant. So if by some strange strange chance people know about this blog and read it...SURPRISE!!!

We're really really REALLY hoping for a girl. We'll love this peanut just the same, if it's a boy, but really, we need some pink in this house!! We'll be finding out the sex of this babe, just as we did with the previous 2, so I'll let you all (no one) know when we do. Won't be for another 4 months though, so don't hold your breath!

Anyway, that is all for now. Nothing over the top exciting.

It's snowing here today.

Let me tell you that is NOT what I wanted to wake up to!! yesterday was beautiful and sunny all day. The kids and I went shopping in the afternoon. now, we're stuck in the house all day. Crap! I'm not one to complain about winter, but man oh man I'm getting tired of it. I just want to take my kids outside and let them play and burn off a LOT of energy!! Guess I'm going to have to wait a little while longer!

This morning while Spencer was still sleeping, Liam discovered a little toy hammer in the playroom. I haven't heard that kid laugh unprovoked like that ever! The hammer makes funny little noises when you hit it on the floor, but Liam was laughing at it while it was quiet. Easily amused I suppose!

Last night Dan told me that they're closing down the mill just outside of town. That's horrible news for a lot of people in town. I don't know how many people work there in total, but I imagine it's a decent number. That's horrible horrible because now all these people need to find a new job in a market that is so badly suffering. I feel so bad for all those families.

Well, i suppose this'll be the end of my random and very boring post! I will leave you with a little dose of cuteness though, to make up for my ridiculous imagination and creative writing skillz!

8:08 Am.

And both my kids are still sleeping. In fact, I can hear Liam SNORING right now. He tried waking up at 6:30, but being the lazy ass I am, I turned the monitor off and rolled over until 7:30. I thought I heard him then, so I got up and got his breakfast all mixed and ready to go only to hear him snoring his little head off in bed!! No complaints though! How nice to enjoy a cup of coffee, surf around the net for a few uninterrupted moments and then start my day!! Lucky lucky me!!

The Longest Shortest night

Liam, my beautiful little blond haired blue eyed boy. You are 10 months old now, this means that I expect you to know the difference between night and day. Though i'm sure you thought it was a fantastic idea, waking up at 11:30 and screaming your head off until 1:30am is not cool. It makes for a very tired and grumpy mommy in the morning, ok? I appreciate the fact that sometimes you just get lonely and want some company, but seriously, dude. Moms need their sleep too. How do you expect me to not dump you on your head when putting you on the change table if I've only had 3 minutes of sleep? Crappy sleep. So, my dear child, in the future, I think you should just stay sleeping at wake up at the agreed 7am. Thanks.

Mom.

I'm Old

I was just looking on Facebook at some pictures of a girl I used to babysit. Pictures of her KISSING her BOYFRIEND. Oh my god. I feel faint. She's always going to be 7 years old to me. So she better watch out when I'm back in town and we go for a walk, and I want to hold her hand when we cross the street. Or, when she wants to ride her bike to the park and I secretly follow her just to make sure she gets there okay. Except will she really be going to the park? Or to the BOYFRIEND'S house? Oh my god. Is this what parents feel like when their children start dating? I'm so not ready for her to be dating. Or even looking at boys. Or knowing that they exist. I always told her daddy that he needed to lock her in her room from the time she turned 12 until ohhh say...the day she turned 36. She's such a pretty polite girl. I don't want her to be taken advantage of, or pressured into anything. WHOA....look at my mind go a little crazy there. Yup, that's what my brain does multipule times a day...it's fun to be me.

Just a little recap here on the situation across the street. I did end up phoning the police to go check it out. I noticed on Thursday that the door was open, so naturally, I waited THREE days and then phoned. I wanted to give the apartment time to get REALLY cold and frozen before I intervened. Anyway, I phoned, they came and looked. We all sat in the living room watching (this could have been something REALLY exciting) It was not. They went in, closed the door and came out the other way. That's it. BUUUUT. The next night, the blinds were all open, and there were different lites on in there. I don't think anyone is in there though. So I'm thinking that they just packed up and took off. Good, wholesome honest retards. Nice.

The weather is back down to really friggen cold. I can't complain though, because winters in Alberta are supposed to be cold, so when the snow starts melting and I can see grass in January, that scares me. Though I did enjoy getting the kidlets out of the house a few times. I'm glad it's cold again and I'm really really looking forward to spring's arrival in a few weeks. It's time to get the house aired out and the kids playing in the backyard!

And, that's it for my completely random post for the day. Peace out 'yo!

where did my posts go?

I wish I had something whitty and fun to write about. I don't. Life here has been plugging along at the usual rate with narry an excitement or complication. I guess the mundane is a good thing, but sometimes a person needs a little spice! A little something to look forward to in the day. I can tell you that I'm really really REALLY looking forward to going grocery shopping on the weekend. Sad, no? That's my big outing for the week.

I'm feeling the need to do some home improvement projects around my house. I really want to paint my room, I'm just not 100% sure what colour. I also want to repaint my basement. Same colours, just in a satin finish instead of the stuping matte that's down here right now. I can't wash my walls, and that's not a good thing when I have two messy little kids who get their hands on EVERYTHING.

Anyway, if anyone is actually reading this, you're probably in tears right now because this is so rediculously boring. So, I'll quit for the day. BUT, I'll be back tomorrow!! Lucky you!!

Snoop

Because I'm a "Nosey Nellie", I've been watching an apartment suite across the street for a while now. I'm completely convinced it's a drug house. I don't know that anyone lives there, but there's always someone coming or going. Anyway, it's been a little suspicious (more than normal) over there today. The door is cracked open about a foot. There's been a green truck 'casing the joint'. And some scarey looking men wandering around the parking lot. More than scaring me, this pisses me right off. I'm in the 'newer' part of town. There's a freaking CATHOLIC school pretty much in my back yard, and this garbage is going on in front of my house? We paid a freakin pretty penny for our house, thinking we were safe and sound over here in the non slums of slave lake. Yes, I have condos in front of my house, but I figured because they were CONDOS it wouldn't be an issue. You know, fellow home owners. Guess not. They're not pretty to look at, but it's fun to people watch when there's nothing on the boob toob and both kidlets are otherwise occupied (sleeping). ANYWAY, I'm debating calling the police and having them check it out. BUUUUT there's another problem. In the summer I phoned the RCMP because in the suite about the one currently in question, they were shooting a GUN out their door, presumably at the stray cat prancing around the parking lot. Anyhow, I called and the stupid dispatch cow said that all the units were busy and they'd look into it. HELLOOOOOO...GUUUUUNNNNN...pressing matter? Nope. So i'm assuming if I call and say that I think someone was beaten to death, they're just going to tell me that everyone is busy and they'll look into it when they can. Losers.

Then again, the door could have just been left open after a completely respectable member of our community went to work and didn't double check to make sure he'd shut and locked his door. I have a tendancy to let my mind run wild. Hmmmm

Zombie

Last night, I think I quite possibly had the worst 'sleep' of my life. My pajama top felt to tight (it's not). My pillow was too flat (it's not). My blankets weren't comfortable (they SO are!) It was just not a good night. When I did finally get into a deep enough sleep to actually dream, it was nightmares. I can tell you in my dream I felt absolute terror. Awful awful awful.

I made sure Dan did not turn up the furnace this morning, it bought me EIGHTEEN more minutes of slumber. Hardly even worth it. I guess I really need to be happy that he's sleeping around the clock. Spencer never did, and still doesn't. So maybe I just need to get my butt into bed a lot earlier than I do!

So as I'm sitting here typing this, Spencer is dancing his little heart out to Bo On The Go. Thanks, CBC Kids!! I soooo love that you entertain my kidlets in the morning so I can laze around...ooops I mean, clean up the breakfast filth and get ready for my day!

Anyway, I suppose I should go play with the kidlets. even though all I want is to crawl back into bed...or onto couch, I'm not picky, and go back to sleep!

Blog Stalker

So, I typically spend my mornings hopping around to different blogs while Liam is napping and Spencer is watching a cartoon. This morning I went to a blog that i've been silently following for a few months now. The title to the most recent post made my heart flutter with excitement. After reading the first few lines of the post my heart dropped. This dear woman, pregnant with her first baby, a boy, had to deal with the most tragic news any mother could get. Her little babe had passed away in her belly. I could not imagine going through what she's going through. My heart breaks for her. I hope she has enough family and friends surrounding her to help her through this tragedy. I hope she's given enough time to sit with her son. To love him and snuggle him until she has to say goodbye. I hope she doesn't feel rushed, I hope she can find a little bit of peace and one day I hope she remembers this sweet little 'Bug' with a smile on her face. I hope.

Never Fails

Liam sleeps until 7:30 or 8:00 in the mornings on weekends...once monday rolls around and daddy has gone to work, he wakes up at 7:00 on the nose. EVERY TIME. This kids is unbelievable. I'm going to have dan not turn the furnace up in the mornings when he gets up and see if that helps. Liam's room get so flippen hot because it's right above the furnace room. The garage door opener could also be waking him up too. There's no way around that one though! Ah well!!

In other news, Spencer no longer has an afternoon nap. Much to my dismay. He wasn't sleeping at night very well, and CRYING like a maniac when we put him down for a nap, so we figured we'd skip naptime and see what happens. Well. he's sleeping better at night, going right to sleep when we put him down, but man his he a little grump from about 4:00 on until bed time! Guess it's all a curve that he has to get used to!

I'm sad I have nothing interesting to say this morning. I'm super tired and not too sure that my brain has actually turned on yet. Perhaps one more cup of coffee will do the trick!